Keeping the faith

We've finally found our church!!!

It's been 6 months of searching, 6 months of false hopes, 6 months of anxiety, 6 months of doubting...but, FINALLY. And the church is beautiful.

It's very different from the first church that we really wanted - Grace Assembly was old, with a brick facade and a warm interior with the traditional slanted roof...a stark contrast to Holy Grace, really, with its modern building facade and white and wooden interior. But it appealed because it had the simplicity and peace that we were looking for. So....THANK YOU, GOD!

Since last year, I've been feeling as if God's calling for faith and it's been a really struggle for me to say "Here am I - I want to have faith." cos faith is only built through trials and c'mon...who really wants to go through trials? Jian, however, has seen this whole wedding/marriage process as a giant faith journey and he keeps reminding me to have faith - to have faith that everything will happen in God's time, to have faith that God will provide. But when finding a church felt so hopeless, I started to doubt - to doubt whether this is really God's time. So when we finally received Holy Grace's confirmation that the sanctuary has been reserved for us, I felt a huge sense of relief...and thought I heard a small chiding voice "O ye of little faith!"

So now, we give thanks.

And I give thanks that my God is big enough to indulge me even when I'm faithless.